People change......... why don't its just understand itself.

Yup, i know its rhetoric a header but I think it's just how people have treated me. Mature, and wise people they don't change sides, they stand strong on how they want to live their lives, how its just their philosophy to live. Meow meow's a mature and controlled person who understands the true value of a strong friendship. Tzr as well. Maybe its me and my unclear mind. Just maybe its off my a few values due to the stresses of schoolwork and its demands which has made me wonky. Or maybe i was disconnected with my clique that they just discharged me from them, yah i still follow them most of the time, i take my down time once in a while but i mean, does that equate to leaving me out in almost every discussion. It feels like being a leech sometimes, a torture to myself and them, to me its being mocked by Ahole all the time, yes, for most of the times its has been desensitized but once in a while it just hits the core and i feel like whacking him for his stupidity. You think that by hitting me for my stupid attempt @ stuff that it will compensate for your short comings, fat hope, its tried and tested to not work and will offend people. It has offend mi but i'll just take it in stride cause i've experienced it too much to care. For the rest of them its just that they have to listen my constant crack theories, it must have been hard on you and i applaud those who survive. But to those who have cracked sorrie.

Esp. you. You were once that pillar of "being there" but now you are one together with that over the top self-centered Ahole. I shouldn't question why because even if i knew that answer it wouldn't help much. I can't change you. you changed yourself. I wasn't the impetus for your change, i dunno what was. From what i observe it could be him. @ this moment i think you just finished a talk with him not too long ago. I admit it could have been me that has changed. My reactions to your insensitiveness rather. You are gone, or rather your past image has evolved to this state which relates without me. A state which is dramatically different from the person i first met. I hope its a facade which will change, but those chances are slim.